I’ve been thinking about this idea all weekend. Cup of Jo posted this Mark Duplass video on Friday, and I love his sweet thoughts on re-framing the exhaustion of parenting and focusing on the present.
This afternoon, Diego and I were cuddled up, reading his garbage truck book. He’s somehow managed to destroy the book, ripping every cardboard page off the spine. So really, we were reading his garbage truck cards. Anyway, I’m pointing out the pictures of the green truck, the orange houses, reading along, but thinking of a million other things. I wasn’t feeling terribly exhausted, but definitely just going through the reading motions. My mind wandered back to that video, and the 2040 idea.
Imagine it’s 2040, and you suddenly get 3 minutes, just 3 minutes, to be back in this moment.
I suddenly focused back to the present. I felt the tiny weight of Diego’s sweet little body, curled up against my chest. His wavy hair, slightly matted in the back from baby nap sweat, poofy up on top. He holds the book up against his baby belly, which I just love because he’s so lanky, but thankfully has a precious belly. His “recessed chin,” that when he was a few weeks old, his pediatrician assured us he would “probably grow out of.” He’s already sort of grown out of it, and that thought makes my heart ache, realizing of how much babyness is in the past. Thankfully, he still has a little baby double chin, which gets even more pronounced when he throws his head back and forth in a fit of giggles, a scene that basically defines joy. “Bid-duck” he says, which we think means Big Truck, and he turns the pages to the next card, the truck squishing all the trash into a compactor.
And then, in less than three minutes, the moment is over. He’s begging for agua and the cup is in the other room, and we’re off to the next distraction.
I’m not great at this whole Being Present in the Moment thing. I’m definitely working on it and love discovering ideas to help. Never thought some of my favorite mindfulness advice would come from an actor on Instagram, I guess that’s parenting in 2019 :)