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Diego’s birthday weekend! 

Hello! Happy Friday :) It is 2 in the afternoon, I’m cozy in my bed, it’s been raining on and off, and I have a lavender rosemary candle on. Today is my birthday! I took the day off from work and Diego is taking a nap (HOORAY!!). I’m relaxing and reflecting on last weekend.

Kirstin had the brilliant idea to write Diego a letter for his first birthday, so I got out all of my wild emotions in a letter to him Sunday night. Now, I’ll just jot down some of our happy memories celebrating our sweet baby’s first birthday!

Saturday morning, we had a party with David’s family. The whole week leading up to his birthday weekend, I was kind of an emotional mess. But when it came time to celebrate, suddenly the excitement took over, and I got in to the festive spirit. Silvia watched Diego in the morning while we ran a few errands to prep. As we drove around, just the two of us, I couldn’t help but think of the Saturday morning, a year ago. We went to brunch and walked along the reservoir, and it was the last day it was just the two of us. It felt sweet to be back in the car, just us, anticipating another special weekend.

Something about picking up his birthday cake, seeing the little hat, made me feel like, oh man, we are parents.

David’s family went all out and prepped an incredible tacquiza. It was delicious.

Diego even tried his first taco!!


Beyond the incredible food, I’m so grateful Silvia is such a talented photographer. I love looking back at these photos of Diego and his birthday cake:

He hesitated for a moment, and then he REALLY went for it. He was pretty bonkers for the afternoon, but watching his delight with the cake was totally worth it.

A little over a year ago, we gathered with the same family and friends to celebrate a baby shower, and anticipate what it would be like to meet this baby. It felt very special to be surrounded by everyone again, wrapping Diego in birthday love.

The sunset that night was amazing!!

The next day, after crepes at the Farmer’s market, the sun came out and it was too beautiful to be inside. We grabbed the stroller and took Diego on a birthday BART ride. I’m pretty sure no one has EVER been this happy on BART. He was elated! I think he liked being able to sit between both of us and watch the view. Usually, in the car, he’s either alone or stuck with me, and I think he genuinely enjoyed being together. Or maybe the train ride was just that exciting?

Anyway, we walked to the park near the Ferry Building and played there for a while.



The park near us doesn’t have bucket swings and he got a real kick out of these:

We celebrated his birthday eve with shakes and french fries at Gotts.

The next morning, Diego’s real birthday, started wayyyyy too early as it was the morning after Daylight Savings. We were all pretty sleepy, but snapped a quick photo before heading to daycare/work.


Glad we got these photos. When we came home and tried to take his year old photo, he was so wiggly and excited, he kept scooting off the couch! So, we popped open the champagne we had been saving to celebrate his first year, and took a photo of that instead :)


Cheers to Diego, to one year, and to all we have learned together! When I was in labor, to calm myself down, I kept telling myself, just think of all you have to look forward to. Someday you’re going to take this baby to the beach, someday this baby is going to see the ocean. I kept picturing a baby at Crystal Cove. Focusing on that hope and dream (sort of) centered me. Taking Diego to the beach has certainly been a highlight this year. But I had no idea how many other remarkable moments were in store. The thrill of seeing Diego at the ocean is matched by the way my heart soars in the morning, when I see Diego and David snuggled up in bed together. Or when I pick him up at daycare and he nearly lunges into my arms. Or when I watch him on the playground, observing other kids, trying to piece together how he fits in in this world, and figure out what they are doing. Learning more about who he is, and who he is becoming, is a thrill I never could have dreamed of. I’m so grateful for all of it, and incredibly thankful for this year and Diego.

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Hello, March 

I wrote this four days ago, but never finished. Now that it is the night before Diego turns 1 (!!!!) a whole new stream of emotion and reflection has taken over. Hoping to write about that, and his first year, tonight. For now, some thoughts from earlier this week:

We’re less than a week away from Daylight Savings Time (beginning? Ending?) and longer days. The extra hour of sunshine will always make me think of Diego as he was born in Daylight Savings Sunday. Trying to wrap my mind around the fact Diego will be one on Monday.

I’m far more emotional about it than I anticipated. It hit me hard on Monday. When I first went back to work, and was constantly pumping, I felt this very intense emotional and physical pull all day long. It was like my arms needed Diego, like I couldn’t completely concentrate, because of this incredible need to hold him, and have him snuggled up with me.

Thankfully, with time (and when I stopped pumping—ALL THE PRAISE HANDS) this pull mostly calmed down. Though I still, to this day, like clock-work, at 2 pm, fiercely miss Diego. I generally have to take a quick break, scroll through some baby photos, but thankfully, it’s not an all day thing.

ANYWAY, all to say, that yesterday, that all-day nagging feeling returned. I felt pretty bluesy and surprisingly extremely emotional thinking about my baby turning 1. David and I are spending most nights re-watching baby clips, and I burst into tears the other night thinking about the baby-baby stage being over. Despite the fact I have an absurd library of photos on my phone, I keep worrying, did I take enough photos? Did I pause enough? How did it all go by so fast?

And yet…it wasn’t really that fast. (I know, I know, it’s the longest-shortest time). There were streatches that were very trying. The exhaustion aside, the initial few weeks post-birth, the total self-doubt when I returned to work, the complete chaos as we navigated new jobs/long commutes, all made for some lonnnng days.

I was thinking about those moments a lot the other day, feeling a bit of a sense of regret as I reflected on Diego’s first year. And then, I curled up, and read a lot of  journal entries from those moments. Sure, I noted how tired I was, but my overwhelming sense in those moments, at that time, was joy and wonder at this sweet baby. Reading about Diego’s first first two weeks or his first baseball game-both of these were during times that I remember feeling particularly exhausted, confused, and very unsure of myself-and yet, all of that was just background noise. What really mattered, and what I did soak up at the time, was complete delight in all of Diego’s antics.

And thinking of his darling antics helps me avoid being tooo emotional about time marching on.  I am loving observing him engage more with the world. He tries to “play” with toddlers at the park, and “dances” (little bounces) to music, and babbles to himself in the car-seat. The other night, we were in the midst of an absurdly messy dinner (why do babies insist on rubbing food all over their eyes???) and I could feel myself getting frustrated. I started joking around with Diego and he exploded into a fit of giggles, and it was like this whoooosh of fresh air and fun exploded and made us all so happy.

So that’s how I was feeling as we kicked off March :)

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Ergo twirling


Just popping in to jot down a happy moment. Tonight, Diego and I were cooking dinner, and he started getting fussy. I picked him up, put him in the Ergo, and kept cooking. And dancing, cooking and dancing. Today was super foggy, and even though it’s been years since I really listened to Damien Rice, his music felt right for the gloomy day.

Anyway, I don’t remember which song, but some part must have been slightly more lighthearted (?) because I started spinning around. Diego lost it in a fit of giggles. We twirled and giggled, and I would stop, and he would stop, and then, spinning again, his giggles picked back up.

This didn’t go on for very long, I got dizzy pretty quickly. It was just a really nice moment. I tried to take a quick picture to remember :)

Sending good thoughts for a restful weekend!

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7 months :)

On Thursday, Diego Antonio turned 7 months old! 

He’s officially tipped the scale-he’s closer to a one-year old than a newborn. This little army-crawling, sitting up, giggling child feels very different from the newborn, puppy-faced, bitty baby we brought home this spring.

But…he’s still very much a baby. I’m relishing learning more and more about him. He loves being outside: walks in his stroller and laying on the blanket in the yard, or even just hanging on the couch on the deck make him a happy camper. He’s not too into solid food, but we (finally) put together the high-chair and he seems to enjoy eating with us. We’ve entered a movement stage: he army crawls, rolls all over, wiggles and pulls himself up in the crib-and we constantly have to watch his active antics. (His favorite pastime? Crawling under the sofa and ripping the fabric off the bottom).

He’s still super serious; furrowing his brow and staring deep (he’s got quite the Resting Baby Face). But, David can ignite a fit of giggles and I love watching his face light up with his dad.

Some firsts from the month:

First wedding: Janou + Max! 

First trip to the desert: Palm Springs for Janou’s wedding. I hope to bring him back soon-love it there.

First overnight away from his mom: Twice! Two trips to D.C. The first one, I felt like the car could not go fast enough home from the airport, I was so anxious to scoop him up. The second one, I was much calmer. Baby steps. Literally.

I think that’s it? Or all I can think of. It was a busy month of travel and getting used to new routines, and Diego was patient and easy-going with it all. Very grateful for that.

Happy and thankful for this sweet baby time :)

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Diego Fridays

Whoops-wrote this last week and never posted. Hoping to have a moment to write about the most exciting recent event-Janou and Max’s wedding! Until then, some thoughts on hanging out with Diego :)

Writing this on my phone, with a napping Diego on my chest, aka, my happy place. When planning out my parental leave, I received some excellent advice: take a little time ramping up to a 100% return to work.

Thankfully, my organization is very family friendly, and they were open to my request to work four days a week during my first three months back. Since returning, I’ve spent Fridays at home with this sweet face:

Today is my last Diego Friday, and I’ll be back to 100% next week. I’m so grateful for these Fridays off. I’ve absolutely treasured the time and look forward to my Diego day all week. I also learned that working 80% is actually really hard, and it will be good to have more dedicated hours (and daycare time) to get stuff done.

That said, I’m definitely going to miss these special days! The past few months have been…chaotic…and I haven’t handled everything as well as I had hoped. Having these days helped keep me relatively sane and I’m thankful for the extra hours of snuggling and giggling that we had each week. 

Some Fridays we would be getting ready for a trip, so those days were usually a blur of packing, house cleaning, cramming the weekend errands, and hitting the road.

But on the Fridays where we didn’t have to be anywhere, we just chilled. They tended to look something like this:

Sleeping a little later than usual and snuggling in the morning.

Daily Diego Photo Shoots!

Checking in on e-mail together

Mid-day walks and naps through the neighborhood and UOP…usually followed by a trip to Gian’s for my favorite turkey sandwich. 

Floor time! In the living room and the yard.

More naps and snuggles…

And, until recently, with David’s new long days and commute, prepping for happy hour and dinner on the deck :)

Oh Diego, I hope I soaked up each moment of these special Fridays together. I can’t believe you’ll be seven months soon and it boggles my mind how much you’ve grown. Grateful for every moment that we spend together, and so thankful for these simple, happy days together :)

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